I have been following my new daily schedule for almost three weeks (to be shared in detail soon), and am finally creating art 3 – 4 to hours every day, Monday through Friday.
Now the question is . . .
WHAT do I create in all that luscious time?
For the past 12 years, I created what I knew how to do – 3dimensional collage, and most recently, adding paint to collage. I like what I’ve created, even loved it at times, yet I’ve always wanted to expand my skills as an artist.
But with a day job, there was never time to do this. I created what I already knew, what gave me joy to create, AND what I perceived others would also like in the hopes of selling it.
So when I quit my job, I decided to focus my first 6 to 12 months of freedom on experimenting with different art techniques, and NOT selling anything.
I signed up for six on-line art classes, two live art workshops, made a list of artists who publish You-tube and Instagram art tutorials, bought a boat load of art supplies, and started learning new stuff for the first time in years. Heaven, right?
What I didn’t realize is how uncomfortable I would feel venturing into unknown territory, where I don’t have skills.
The result? I often don’t like what I create, at least not initially. I find myself feeling a tad insecure and shaky making what sometimes looks like “shitty art”.
It was time to give myself a good talking too.
To do this, I used the method I’ve relied on for the past 25 years to ground myself and make my highest good decisions.
I took off my glasses (I can barely see to write without them), wrote a question in my journal that I wanted help with, and started writing in third person as if the Universe/God/my highest self (for me its all the same), is talking to me.
Here is the question I asked a couple days ago…
God, I need your help. Should I focus on getting good at one art style, OR what feels best each day, switching between new techniques before I get proficient at any one?
What is my highest good path with art making each day?
Then I wrote in third person whatever I heard in my head, continuously, without stopping to think or edit. And when I was done 20 minutes later, I reread what I wrote and I was stunned at the profound wisdom before me.
I KNEW it was my truth.
Here is how my highest self answered that question….
Just keep creating art everyday, like a prayer to yourself.
Do what is calling your name each moment, no need to stay in a straight line.
By moving from project to project, style to style, you will put together the puzzle pieces of what you are seeking with art.
You don’t know what style to focus on because you haven’t yet stumbled on the style that will be uniquely yours.
Make no mistake you WILL find it.
The path to finding your unique voice is to follow what sounds like fun each day.
It will actually take longer if you just stick with one technique or style and get good at it.
You will fit many things together to form what you are destined to give to the world.
For now, stick with the absolute joy of experimenting, allowing you to play without a purpose.
Now is the time to play, enjoy the process, and learn the discipline of creating everyday.
This is your highest path.
So that is what I’m doing now – PLAYING.
To be honest this makes me nervous. Creating without a plan, or a clear path is very uncomfortable.
And I’m doing it anyways, KNOWING that this is the shortest path to what I most want, even though I don’t exactly know what my art will look like when I get there. Maybe it will be some version of what I’ve created for the past 12 years, or perhaps, something brand new is getting ready to be born within me.
For now, I’m simply creating what ever most interests me each day, trusting that somehow this process will lead me to find my unique voice as an artist, and how I’m meant to share this with the world for the highest good of all.
It is time to stop writing now and start my three to four hours of art making for the day, because that is what my schedule says I should do!